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[Starts here.]

[She makes a face at that, because that's terrible.]

Fiction is written by people who are scared of what they don't understand. That doesn't make any of it true. It's just ... projection. Especially sci-fi.

[ That reaction makes her pause in the middle of starting to carve out a design. It's...so rational. And nice. Which she technically doesn't deserve since she'd totally gone the insane AI route, but...no one needs to know that. ]

I like writing fiction, though...

[ But that's probably not the point Josie was trying to make. ]

But I get what you mean. It's just hard not to take it to heart. [ She sighs. ] Especially like I said with my friend who's way more out about it than I am. If you know Mega, that's who I'm talking about.

[ And Proto, but...he's a special exception she mostly ignores. ]

I know both of them. Him and his brother.

[She does get what she means about Mega though, as much as she may like him. But she also has some perspective on this that Mega doesn't necessarily.]

Mega's never lived in a world where he's had to hide. He has clear directives, and he's so certain of them. But me? My world is way too complicated to always know what the right answer is. And witches can't be out in the open without putting themselves at risk.

[ She can't stop a grimace. ] One of them's a little better than the other...

[ Rude to say, but it's true! There's nothing wrong with rudeness if it's truthful! ]

And yeah, I know he can be free and happy with who he is, because it's all he's known, but... [ She sighs hard. ] I was just thrown into it, you know? Imagine if you lived for years, but you didn't become conscious of anything until you're an adult. How am I supposed to know what to do? How do I know what's real and normal? Am I even alive?

[ Abruptly, she pauses. She'd gone so far off on her own tangent that it's taken a while for her to process what her mind glossed over. ]

...Did you say witches?

[ Did she miss hearing about that when she was drunk?! ]

Yeah. I said witches. And ... I do? Sort of?

[She makes a face because how best to explain this.]

Do you need me to explain the witches part anymore first? Other than them being a thing where I'm from?

[ Okay, yeah. Pumpkin forgotten for now. This is way more juicy, and not in the unfun way the pumpkin is. ]

I think we've established the witch part, ahaha. I can wrap my head around that okay. [ She's read some Harry Potter! ] But, er, hiding? Why does that always seem to be a thing?

[ She smiles weakly then waves a hand, making a pumpkin seed she didn't know was still stuck to her fly off. ] I can probably guess that part, too. Persecution? Fear of being an easy solution to problems? Humans are dumb?

[ Because, again, she's read some Harry Potter. ]

Basically. They tend to set things on fire that they don't understand.

[And while Josie understands the urge to set things on fire, she tends to draw the line at people. Most of the time.]

But it's not just humans. Vampires tend to use witches to get what they want if they can find them.

Or delete them, in my case. Ahaha.

[ The laugh was weak, and so's her smile, but it says a lot that she can at least joke about herself now.

Hold the phone, though. Now vampires are involved? It's...a little hard for her not to get excited about that. All her vampire romance novels make them seem exotic and romantic, to no one's surprise. Would it be weird to ask if they're good kissers, or if getting bit is as great as she thinks it'd be? ]

Is there...anyone that actually likes you all, then?

Not really.

[At least, not in the way that wants to protect them.]

My world's kind of complicated.

[ She smiles a bit ruefully. ] Guess we have something in common, then. Erm, not that I have a real world or anything, but...you know what I mean.

[ She looks away a moment, trying to get over her awkwardness. It's always a strange feeling, finding people who get her, or at least have an idea of what it's like to not belong in the world. She never thought she'd have the opportunity. ]

If it makes you feel better, I don't think there's anything wrong with what you are. And like, I wouldn't want you use you or something. Or expect you to be the next coming of technological Christ.

[ Not speaking on her own experiences here at all. ]

I appreciate it.

[She smiles softly at that, before reaching over and placing a hand on her shoulder.]

I don't think there's anything wrong with what you are either.

Oh, you're welcome! And--

[ The touch startles her. It's not a bad thing, really! She's just a little too used to that leading to either making love or pain. Not like, comfort or anything. ]

Ahaha. Um. Thanks. [ Eventually, she shakes her head and waves a hand. ] Sorry. I'm not used to that reaction. Then again, I'm not used to actually telling people what I am either...

[ After a hesitation, her hand settles on Josie's and gives it a squeeze. Hopefully the pumpkin remnants aren't much of an issue. ]

It's nice not to feel alone.

[Nah, they'll make it work. Josie squeezes in return before nodding.]

Yeah. It is.

[And then they'll go back to pumpkins and talk about much lighter things.]

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OH GOD SORRY i never got a notif 😬

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